you were always alone

"sometimes i wonder, you know."

"what?"

"i guess if you really cared."

"i didn't know you."

"i think you did, to an extent.  or you could've stuck around to learn at least."

"but you were never honest."

"i told you i that i would open up to you."

"but you don't.  you never did.  even if i had asked you to i would've had to push for it.  to see the you underneath."

"then why didn't you?"

"i got tired of pushing."

"you got tired of me."

"i got tired of pushing."

"so you gave up on me.  bottom line, you didn't want me."

"yeah."

"that's kinda piss poor, dontcha think?"

"what?"

"i gave you everything i had.  everything you asked of me.  selflessly, i poured all my effort and care into no one but you because you needed it desperately and what you gave me was like a hotel room - i enjoyed myself until you made me leave."

"i gave you things."

"you gave me care and kindness but you also gave me half a person because you were always craving intimacy.  i wasn't there so you went crazy."

"so you admit it."

"what?"

"i cared."

"yeah, well.  i put my dog down because i cared, too."