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step one

cry.  scream.  bang your fists against the walls
that keep you locked inside.
kick your feet in the air.  tell your sister she's stupid
and wrong and that you've never loved her.
cry.  scream.  apologize via him to you.
let your tears catch on your lashes
until you can no longer see anything but your own
demise.  taste the bitterness left in
your mouth from your own bitching and rot in it.

step two

break a mug.  break two.  kick
the pieces around the kitchen floor and cry some more.
break a plate.  break a cup.  break a bowl.
break a finger because nothing can take away this
sort of pain.  you are empty and yet
you are filled with so much anger.
break a razor and paint pictures across your skin.

step three

you are okay, you tell them.
you break three days later and you lie
in bed, unable to move.

step four

start picking up the pieces.  clean up the mess
you've made and he's left.
use windex to polish off the dirt and
buff out the scratches while you are at it.
wash the carpet where the blood
stained and vacuum over it.  date someone else.
and when he takes advantage of
you wish on every fucking star in the night sky
that he would come back damnit please
come back.

step five

cry because that's all you do these days
is cry yourself a river.
and you just keep hoping that one day it'll take
you in its currents and drown you so that
you don't have to do it yourself.

step six

congratulations.
you're still broken, but it's okay because
just look at how mosaics are made.
you're beautiful if you're still breathing, baby.

hating life.
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toxicTranquility Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this piece is absolutely beautiful, keep it as well!
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks!
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AwkwardJas Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this is powerful. it is beautiful and strong and everything I wish I could do. please, never stop writing. even if you don't post it on here. never stop because you have this raw talent and emotion.
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Allons-ySherlock Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student Photographer
Whoa....... this   is   powerful.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you
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The-Feather-Quill Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is absolutely beautiful and breathing and it's one of those few things that can hit hard whether personally or not, honestly thank you so much for writing such a beautiful piece.
I adore the last verse, it's so powerful in just four lines :heart: :hug:
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much :heart:
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
"break a razor and pain pictures across your skin" :heart:

This is so powerful. You have a way of...I know you're writing about personal things, but it just stirs up the reader's own pain. You're so very good at eliciting and drawing out that vulnerability and inner pain (no matter where it's at) in all of us.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so very much, it means a lot :heart:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconcomfortplz:
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:heart:
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:iconchromeantennae:
chromeantennae Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3
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:iconghostoftheemptygrave:
I feel like crying...
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
don't cry dear.
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:iconghostoftheemptygrave:
I almost did. But my tears already dryed out...
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
good.  don't cry sweetie.
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:iconghostoftheemptygrave:
Remember, tears are a gift only humans have.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
so very true.
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MichealCaesar Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Many poems (including my own work) that center upon recovering from the break (whether romantic or otherwise) are often boring, lifeless, or at best a touchy cheesy. This is none of the above. Truly great, profound and speaks to your reader. Well done.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so very much :heart:
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Surviveroflove Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2013

"break a razor and paint pictures across your skin"

 

"congratulations.
you're still broken, but it's okay because
just look at how mosaics are made.
you're beautiful if you're still breathing, baby."

 

When I was at a summer camp a few years ago this girl somehow brought 2 switch blades to the camp. She dated allot of guys there and they all didn't stay with her long. One day after her latest 'boyfriend broke up with her she showed me her arms. I'm not going to tell you what I saw because you already guessed correct. On her left hand she had carved a crudely drawn heart into her skin. I stayed quiet the whole time I was there about what happened because she was my friend. Now I truly wish I could have helped her. I was such a coward. Now every time I think about picking up a razor myself I think about her. The problem is I still break a little more each day.

 

*sorry if this is too personal. This poem just hit me hard and I can really realte.* 

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Morning-Star-42 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Huggle! 
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:iconsurviveroflove:
Surviveroflove Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013
*smiles* Thank you.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
we're all cowards on the inside.  someday, you'll be able to forgive yourself sweetie.  i'm sorry.
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SpiderwebWisher Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It's rare that great poems such as these leave me speechless. I have nothing to say, because my words would be an understatement.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much.
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SpiderwebWisher Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome. :)
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JessenoSabaku Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Shit, those last two lines touched me so much.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm glad :heart:
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overtsexualized Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This really speaks to me right now, thank you for writing this.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm glad :heart:
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WinteroftheSoul Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013
"you're still broken, but it's okay because
just look at how mosaics are made."

*points* These lines... :heart:
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :heart:
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Maxx013 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Have you seen some poems were they don't use punctuation, like with Nikki Giavanni? In most of here poems, she doesn't capitalize or punctuate anything unless it is the end of the stanza. That is something that could be added, but other than that, I love this poem. It takes courage to write about stuff like this, and even more to publish it. Thanks for doing that.
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
first i'm going to say thank you for your kind words.

and i don't mean to be a bitch but i'd appreciate it if you didn't tell me what i can and can't do with my writing.  i've seen poetry like that and it's beautiful, but my writing is just that, mine, and the way that you said: "that is something that could be added" told me you think that if i did that it would improve my writing.

but that's not me.

thank you.
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AquaRock Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That last line right there....

you're beautiful if you're still breathing, baby

YES! This is quite worthy of becoming a daily deviation! *crosses fingers* I sure hope it becomes one! Anyway, great poem!
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
oh god aqua i hated this piece.
this is not not not worthy of becoming a dd at all ^^;
but that you.
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ConspiritorialKitten Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013
break a razor and paint pictures across your skin.
 this really gets me.
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:icona-lovely-anxiety:
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm sorry
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