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step one

cry.  scream.  bang your fists against the walls
that keep you locked inside.
kick your feet in the air.  tell your sister she's stupid
and wrong and that you've never loved her.
cry.  scream.  apologize via him to you.
let your tears catch on your lashes
until you can no longer see anything but your own
demise.  taste the bitterness left in
your mouth from your own bitching and rot in it.

step two

break a mug.  break two.  kick
the pieces around the kitchen floor and cry some more.
break a plate.  break a cup.  break a bowl.
break a finger because nothing can take away this
sort of pain.  you are empty and yet
you are filled with so much anger.
break a razor and paint pictures across your skin.

step three

you are okay, you tell them.
you break three days later and you lie
in bed, unable to move.

step four

start picking up the pieces.  clean up the mess
you've made and he's left.
use windex to polish off the dirt and
buff out the scratches while you are at it.
wash the carpet where the blood
stained and vacuum over it.  date someone else.
and when he takes advantage of
you wish on every fucking star in the night sky
that he would come back damnit please
come back.

step five

cry because that's all you do these days
is cry yourself a river.
and you just keep hoping that one day it'll take
you in its currents and drown you so that
you don't have to do it yourself.

step six

congratulations.
you're still broken, but it's okay because
just look at how mosaics are made.
you're beautiful if you're still breathing, baby.

hating life.
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toxicTranquility Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this piece is absolutely beautiful, keep it as well!
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks!
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AwkwardJas Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  New member Student Writer
this is powerful. it is beautiful and strong and everything I wish I could do. please, never stop writing. even if you don't post it on here. never stop because you have this raw talent and emotion.
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Allons-ySherlock Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Whoa....... this   is   powerful.
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you
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The-Feather-Quill Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is absolutely beautiful and breathing and it's one of those few things that can hit hard whether personally or not, honestly thank you so much for writing such a beautiful piece.
I adore the last verse, it's so powerful in just four lines :heart: :hug:
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much :heart:
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haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
"break a razor and pain pictures across your skin" :heart:

This is so powerful. You have a way of...I know you're writing about personal things, but it just stirs up the reader's own pain. You're so very good at eliciting and drawing out that vulnerability and inner pain (no matter where it's at) in all of us.
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A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so very much, it means a lot :heart:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconcomfortplz:
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