cry. scream. bang your fists against the walls that keep you locked inside. kick your feet in the air. tell your sister she's stupid and wrong and that you've never loved her. cry. scream. apologize via him to you. let your tears catch on your lashes until you can no longer see anything but your own demise. taste the bitterness left in your mouth from your own bitching and rot in it.
break a mug. break two. kick the pieces around the kitchen floor and cry some more. break a plate. break a cup. break a bowl. break a finger because nothing can take away this sort of pain. you are empty and yet you are filled with so much anger. break a razor and paint pictures across your skin.
you are okay, you tell them. you break three days later and you lie in bed, unable to move.
start picking up the pieces. clean up the mess you've made and he's left. use windex to polish off the dirt and buff out the scratches while you are at it. wash the carpet where the blood stained and vacuum over it. date someone else. and when he takes advantage of you wish on every fucking star in the night sky that he would come back damnit please come back.
cry because that's all you do these days is cry yourself a river. and you just keep hoping that one day it'll take you in its currents and drown you so that you don't have to do it yourself.
congratulations. you're still broken, but it's okay because just look at how mosaics are made. you're beautiful if you're still breathing, baby.
This is absolutely beautiful and breathing and it's one of those few things that can hit hard whether personally or not, honestly thank you so much for writing such a beautiful piece. I adore the last verse, it's so powerful in just four lines
"break a razor and pain pictures across your skin"
This is so powerful. You have a way of...I know you're writing about personal things, but it just stirs up the reader's own pain. You're so very good at eliciting and drawing out that vulnerability and inner pain (no matter where it's at) in all of us.
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